The days go on, but my commitment stays the same. I will live a weight control lifestyle and keep it at the top of my moral hierarchy. Strangely, it is enjoyable and very satisfying, because of the way all the layers of my mind are lining up and enriching my experience. I have lived very well since January, when I started paying attention to this. Before, I didn’t think twice about how much I was eating, and only ate for the immediate pleasures of eating and being full. Living the way I have worked out over the last nine months has gotten me a lot of self knowledge, which I have used to maximize the sensual pleasures of eating. Now, I match it with deliberate hunger (in small doses at the right time). When I am hungry for lunch, I want to be rewarding myself for going to the trouble.
My food intake and calorie count
Breakfast – 1/4 Quiche (500)
- 500 calories
Lunch – Big Greek Cafe Famous $5 Gyro Wednesday (600);
- 600 calories
Dinner – 8 ounces meatloaf (400); whole wheat wrap (100); potatotes (50)
- 550 calories
Snacking – tea with half and half (80); Snickers ice cream bar (180)
- 260 calories
Total for the day: 1920 calories (limit 1800)
Aftermath and hiatus
I really enjoyed my reward lunch yesterday. At the same time, I definitely noticed I was not used to being so full. All yesterday and last night I was not hungry. I wasn’t hungry even this morning until after 9AM. Even then, my appetite wasn’t normal. Since I don’t know how many calories I had yesterday, it is tempting to say I just ate more than I thought. That is always a possibility. But that meal was meant to be a reward, and it was, in the sense that I let go and enjoyed it. Today was supposed to be back on the weight control program, but it didn’t feel quite like it – and I was a bit over the count.
For the next several days I will be traveling and it will be difficult to post. At worst, I will be back at it Sunday. Until then, take care of your appetite.
-The Doctor