20200123 Daily report

One of the keys to losing weight is obsession.  Yes, obsession can be good.  I think of it like a hobby you are really dedicated to: putting a lot of energy into paying attention to what you are eating, and recording it in your journal.  When it gets to feel like a chore, and not a hobby you are excited about, you know your mind is not in the right place.  When you are doing it right, it’s not like work at all.  It’s fulfilling!

Always excited for bacon!

My food intake and calorie count

Breakfast – BLT wraps (400); extra bacon (70)

  • 470 calories

Lunch – chocolate, cherry, pecan, oatmeal cookie (300); macaroni cheese (100); lentil curry (150); rye bread (150);

  • 700 calories 

Dinner – 9 ounces Carbonnade a la Flamande (440); 5oz rice (160)

  • 600 calories

Snacking – tea with half and half (80); chocolate almonds (150)

  • 230 calories

Total for the day: 2000 calories (limit 1800)

About those 2000 calories

Today has not been a total success in terms of weight control.  But then, I’m sure my head is not in the right place.  By that, I mean I am not looking at the world in a way that helps me reach my goals.  I’ve fallen into a place I don’t recognize.  I don’t know exactly what my goal of eating is at this moment.  It’s not to control my intake or my weight!  When I was gaining weight, I wanted to feel full.  Now I want ????  I’m not sure where my search for satisfaction is leading me, but it’s not productive.  

I will have to think about it.  Or else change my mind.  That worked once before.  

-The Doctor