At the top of the moral hierarchy are the things you value the most in life. The higher your goals, the better chance you have of achieving those things in a meaningful way. For example, one of my highest goals at this moment is to be in control of my body’s weight. But sometimes it is hard to keep your aim high and then you will fall into lower ones. For good or bad, the reason I eat food is to feel satisfied. When my aim is high, the feeling of satisfaction is difficult to achieve and highly rewarding. That is, I finely balance the need to eat with portion control – the exact amount of the exact food that will create the greatest feeling of fulfillment.
When my aim is low, the satisfaction comes from the emotions I associate with having a full stomach. When others talk about “eating their emotions” I think I know what they mean.
There’s no doubt that being in control of your body’s weight (and finding emotional fulfillment that way) is more meaningful than eating until full at every meal. Eat just the right amount, then every carefully measured meal will be a reward and an inducement to prepare for the next meal. Don’t overdo it!
My food intake and calorie count
Breakfast – 12 ounces steel cut oats (340)
- 340 calories
Lunch – Steak and cheese sandwich (500);
- 500 calories
Dinner – 6oz noodles (300); homemade beef ragu sauce (250)
- 550 calories
Snacking – tea with half and half (120); cookies (140); chips and salsa (140);
- 400 calories
Total for the day: 1770 calories (limit 1800)
It is all tied together
I have been having trouble keeping my aims and goals at the highest level. That has allowed my old eating behavior to return, though not for very long, thank goodness! Anyway, I decided to make things easier on myself and stop writing posts for a while, and focus on my eating behavior. Boy, was that a mistake. It was like I pulled an important card out of a card house and it all came down! So everything is tied together. If I stop doing anything, it all stops. So I will keep posting as I figure things out.
I am pretty sure the trouble lies with my aims and goals at the highest level. If I have those right, everything else will follow. If I have those wrong, everything else is seems arbitrary and that makes it hard to find meaning in what I am doing. And I think a lot of this is about finding meaning in my life. The methods I have developed to lose weight are just tools, after all. It’s the meaning they bring that makes them worth all the trouble.
Be careful when you choose aims! They have to be worth it.
-The Doctor
I’m so glad to see your daily post again…I missed it! You have inspired me these past months to take control of whatever I put in my mouth and I actually feel better when I am mindful. I also find that going to yoga class helps me to keep balance (ha-ha) in my life: food, drink, chores, creative projects, etc. Thanks for your inspiration. It is all tied together, as you said.