Another day is another chance to control my body’s weight! Believe it or not, you can get to a place where that is something you look forward to. It fulfills a need in you. And that all comes from setting weight control as a great moral good in your mind. You create a vision of the future where you have you body’s weight under control. You can be thinner, or heavier, as you choose. It does mean though that you take responsibility for what happens to your body and yourself. You decide to make the changes needed to bring this moral reality into being.
Before I became interested in weight control, controlling how much I ate was a huge bother and I would give up easily. That’s because my vision of the future (at that time) was centered around being full, and that became more and more of a source of satisfaction. Now, I think of being full as a cheap thrill, hardly worth it. My mind has changed and the way I see food and eating has changed. My goal now is weight control.
My food intake and calorie count
Breakfast – 3oz soda bread (275); 6oz baked beans (270)
- 545 calories
Lunch – Corned beef (100); and cabbage (10); wraps (100); with potato (10); carrot (10); and TI dressing (100);
- 330 calories
Dinner – bread and hummus (210); 8oz baked beans (360); bread roll (220);
- 790 calories
Snacking – tea with half and half (80); Trader Joe’s chocolate (125);
- 205 calories
Total for the day: 1870 calories (limit 1800)
Day to day
I don’t quite understand it, since I have not been exercising due to the quarantine for coronavirus, but I woke up ravenous and ate breakfast earlier than usual. I could have eaten more, but I wanted to be careful not to spoil lunch. When this kind of thing happens, I have to make sure I eat enough so that I don’t feel deprived; that’s when trouble begins and overeating looks attractive. So I was careful to eat just enough.
Lunchtime – yes, I was ravenous again, and was staring at the clock from 10.30 onwards. Leftover corned beef and potato, carrot, and shredded cabbage wraps hit the spot (especially if you warm them up). It’s hard to believe that Thousand Island dressing has 130 calories in 2 tablespoons, by the way. Very expensive in calories, but it does bring the sandwich together.
Dinner – yes, starving by 4.30 again. I have no idea what’s gotten into me, though I have made a change recently. I’ve been having tea with half and half daily as a treat, and I noticed that the half and half was not lasting as long as it used to. Maybe the container had a hole in the bottom. But really, I’ve clearly been having quite a bit more than I was supposed to, since I hate to drag out the measuring spoon every time I have tea. But I have discovered that 2 tablespoons of half and half weigh about 30 grams, so now I just pour it into my cup while on the kitchen scale. Yes, all calories must be measured when you are trying to achieve weight control.
Today I went to Aldi because I needed exercise. So I walked and took a backpack. Once I got there, it was an interesting scene. This store has been hit hard by panic buying and has had to do major restocking every night, and the hours have been restricted to limit hoarding (a recipe for more panic and hoarding if you ask me). The store had not completely recovered but it had a little bit of everything: some dried meat, some bread, lots of produce, some fresh meat, some milk, and some canned goods, and a little pasta. Very little rice, very few fruit cups, no flour or granulated sugar (plenty of powdered sugar), no yeast available. There was plenty of lunch meat, frozen goods, chocolate and sweets, and tons of snack chips of all kinds, plenty of crackers and lots of cheese. They had a lot of eggs too. There were about half the customers compared to normal.
Next: a report on Trader Joe’s! I hardly shop there, but they have also been hit hard by the panic.
-The Doctor